Both Sides of the Fire

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You know i prefer LJ to twitter. you actually get to talk to people and they can comment and a conversation can go on and i can ramble. text limits. i don't like them.

i do have a twitter though, randomly. i... uh.... don't remember what it is right now. too lazy. XD; lol

Sooooo.. random thought for the day; I don't like square peices of cake. I prefer wedge/pie slice shaped peices. They just.... taste better. idk. it's a mental block. squares don't taste as good to me. :/

holy jesus christ has it REALLY been that long since i updated my LJ?! D:

SHIT YOU GUYS MUST THINK I KILLED MYSELF OR SOMETHING!!! D:

i'm fine. .__. sorry for the emo and... vanishing act. 8D;;; idk WHY the vanishing act... no reason in particular...


*huggles LJ and LJ peoples* jesus christ so long since i posted... .__.;;;;

...if I just stand over here and pretend to be my happy self when I really feel depressed, emo, rejected, alone, and lifeless inside?















well it worked all this week anyway. Fucking Sasuke cosplay is infectious or something. wts. Also, I concur with celes. Transformers 2 needs moar Bumblebee, but otherwise osm.

I really am starting to think I have issues with being uninterested in people who show interest in me first... and wanting to chase those who seemingly are outside of my reach and who APPEAR TO BE THAT WAY when I first meet at them. What is this disorder called? I know it's got to be called some- oh right, it's BEING A FUCKTARD. I'm an idiot. Sometimes I really hate myself. LIKE SOMEONE WITHIN YOUR SCOPE OF REACH YOU DUMB BITCH. Srsly. FML...

Do you know how to tell when the seasons change in the south? (Besides the temperature dummy) It gets cold, but doesn't snow (no, we get HAIL, if we're LUCKY we get hail) and the swamp turns brown. Florida is like... "NO PRETTY LEAVES CHANGING COLORS FOR YOU! NO SPARKLY WHITE STUFF OR ICICLES! NO, FUCK YOU! HAVE DEAD FOLIAGE" ......thanks Florida. Like we don't have fun with the hurricanes during the summer, we don't even get a marketable real winter!

The rest of you bastards north happily listen to the tunes of "I'm dreaming of a white Christmas" while down here in Florida, with the Rodent, I just pray the swamp doesn't go up in flames and send ME scurrying like a rat...

.....it's not even fall. I think of these things out of sync. :/

I can't wait for it to be cold again. I like wearing lots of clothes.

Metrcocon is this coming weekend. SO IS MY BIRTHDAY.

......HOW DID BOTH OF THESE THINGS SNEAK UP ON ME?!?!?!?!!! SKDJAKSFHASK

I guess i'm going to metro on saturday >o> even though i am going to disney on sunday with ani... because there's a guy i'm talking to that i'll get to see at metro and and and even though it's fucking FAR AWAY... and downtown tampa is ANNOYING, i wants to see him. >o> XD

i'm sorry to everyone who knows me only online. D:

i am a very scatterbrained sort of person who is bad at keeping up with things. I am a better friend IRL and offline. And i connect better with people i have met irl.

i sorry. D: i rly do luv all my online friends though. i just...; sdjahkfsahskfad impossible to keep up with everything and if i force myself to... idk it frustrates and upsets me to try.

i do check in and read things though... on ppls lives and LJs and journals. I just.. don't comment. i usually never know what to say, which is shit and weird because as you see, i rant and rant in here and if i talk to you over any kind of messaging system you guys know i rant there too~

i'm more wordy one on one i guess??? i dunno. maybe it's a quirk of being an artist. :/

i just feel there are people who i care about that i KNOW i seem to not pay enough attention to... and i feel bad.. so i want to apologize and say ilu all. D: ♥

http://www.l4d.com/blog/post.php?id=2553

Left 4 Dead 2!!!!!!!! Later this year!!

All I have to say is FUCK YEAH! LET'S KILL US SOME ZOMBEES!!!!!!!!!

	Uzumaki Naruto -- [adjective]: Insatiable to the point of crazy
'How will you be defined in the Sexual Dictionary?' at QuizUniverse.com

........AHAHAHAHAHAAA

....oh hay, I posted the other night when I was drunk.. *LOL* shit i barely remember that. man, note to self. never drink two martini things in a row... ever. again. blaaaaah. the two day hang over is not worth it. :/

dude, i am so totalli wasted rihjt now

and i only had two, fucking TWO appletinis. XD ahahaha

duuuuuuuuuude.

so drunk. XD aahahaa. laughing and falling over and talking about silly things wiht friends and family. XD ehehehe

so sleepy too. i think ani is mad at me because we didn't really rp cause i was playing bartender for me and the rest. but she'll forgive me. XD

ehehee... shit. vodka fucks me up. XD i will so have a hangover tomorrow.. thank god i don't gotta go anywhere till like... after 6pm when ani gets home. ahahaha

.........and LOL newest chapter of naruto.... pein has the reset button. lawl. oh, and chapter before that... proves fanfiction influences kishimoto? idk. it changed peins mind anyway.

hawt shikamaru is hawt. his rl-name ish paul. i hope maybe something comes of this? is hawt. seems smart, seems kewl~, seems fun, seems liek maybe might like me? idk. hopeful~ yay hopeful?

i think i will go to sleep before i lose all capacity for thought. (and typing)

wonder if i remember writing this tomorrow. ahahaha niiiiiiiiiiiiiight~! ♥

.....skully, I love and hate you rite nao. XD oh god. She drew an image straight out of my nightmare for me...

http://skull-kid135j.deviantart.com/art/I-m-Just-a-Little-Unwell-122867015

CLICK DAT SHIT, IT'S HARDCORE SCARY AWESOME and i still can't lookit it for more than a few seconds before having to close it yet... waaaaaaah. XD;

No one is online and the person who is is playing online game in favor of talking to me... >.>

I AM BORED. ENTERTAIN ME INTERNEZ!

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*Waits awhile*

dammit, does this mean I gotta do it myself??? blah

EDIT: GIVE ME SOMETHING TO FUCKING BREAK. D< JSDADSD, IT'S TOO LATE AT NIGHT FOR ME TO HUNT SQUIRRELS AND I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING. *GROWL* mood of this journal offically changes to pissed. /Edit

like the twilight series, so this doesn't count... loved watchmen... so that doesn't count... band... erm... I was more enthused to see Linkin Park than I was Metallica back when I went to a concert a couple years back? And I really like and have always liked Hanson alot? Food... hmm... I hate mexican food. Always have. Only thing I like are tacos mom makes at home some time.

Please never try to take me to a Taco Bell. I will blatantly refuse. XD

Something I hate that not alot of people know... kids? Yeah I had children for the most part. I think most of my friends know that about be already though.

It's hard for me to think of things I dislike actually. XD It's easier to think of favorites

On swine flu: Kakashi-sensei sez wear a mask. lawlz

my symptoms have moved from sore throat to irritated throat, stuffy and runny nose, diharrea and wtf explosive sneezes. my sleeves are suffering. *LOL*

also smoke shot out from the cooling vent on my laptop today, after it made this kind of farting sound... so i bring this entry to you live from my behemoth of a desktop which hadn't been turned on in more than a year before this... *LOL* I'm glad now that I had decided just last week to clean it up and put the thing back in working order~

shit i hope my laptop is ok. D: at least i have kyuubi (my external harddrive) which has everything of import saved on it. and that can be hooked up to anything. but yeah... i'm kind of worried about my laptop and if it dies... there goes my portability. :/ i rather don't like being antisocial and stuck in my room to be on the computer... which i like to be on alot. D: *is a social person, k!*

we shall see... XD;

in GOOD news... NARUTO SHIPPUDEN MOVIE KIZUNA IS OUT!!!!!!!!!!! *squeeksqeal* AND NO ONE IN FANDOM TOLD ME DAMMIT. WHY IS THAT?! .......oh yeah, because i don't really hang out in the fandom lately... D: i should hang out... ;0; mou.

I watched. It was guud. Wasn't enough NaruSasu interaction though, for how it was billed in the previews. D< mou. what there was was really good though~ ♥

I should be sleeping and showering... erm.. in reverse order of course...

BUT HOLY JESUS THIS IS FUNNY



it sounds like fucking conversations i have had with my friends. XD (me being the one with the zombie plan and everyone else being all "wtf no one thinks that way!" WELL YUS I DO! XD )

uh-yeah... i work at the front desk of a DOCTOR'S OFFICE, so i kinda am worried. especially since atm i'm sick. >.>;

HA! avoid contagion??? *points to above* impossible. 8D

dealing with quarentine??? O.o;

dude, it's not captain tripps... XD

http://doihaveswineflu.org/
*giggle*

and on the more serious side of things: http://cdc.gov/swineflu/

I'm sick. XD; (not with swine flu) just a sore throat. >.>; fucking sucks though, puts me more at risk (at least in my mind) to be suseptible to things. D< argh. blah.

i'm less worried and more INTERESTED in all this shizz. XD hehehee

i think the main reason it's worrying everyone is that it's a new strain AND it's attacking, not the old and very young or sick, it's attacking the young and HEALTHY. D: And that it's new and with rapid transmission could mutate. :/

we shall see~ supposedly two of OUR patients (i work at Dr's office, at the front desk, for a referesher)were sent to the hospital today with suspected possible cases.

am i the only one who snickers and goes "DR WHO?!" whenever they refer to the WHO on tv???? heh. probably so. XD

Tie between a screeching baby and your alarm clock first thing in the morning. Oh, also snoring. yeah

sad music makes rose sad.... happy music is pissing me off... and i hate it when i feel lonely and depressed but don't want to TALK to anyone... where the fuck did my good mood go? i cleaned my room happily to music and then fucking POOF... hello emo.

....damnit i don't even know what the word for 'sad' is in japanese.. i know "to cry" is "naiteru"... but that's about it. what's the romanji for "Sad"?

i'm lonely...in so many more ways then just wanting a boyfriend or a girlfriend...

二ひひひひ！みて　みて！　

I installed the ability to type japanese into my computer again! 8D yay! やたつてばよ！！

Also, this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxuOKTqkgys 　もと　もと　かこい　です！すき！

oh yeah. i am so going to abuse this new ability to write in japanese. 8D ahahaha....i bet i will fucking forget half of what i wrote. XD *SNORT*

THIS JUST MEANS MY PUNK ASS HAS TO MEMORIZE ALL THE HIRAGANA AND KATAKANA! がんばて！